12/14/09, 2:37am. Last blog post happened almost exactly 5 hours before I raced headlong into the rear end of a stopped car in traffic. Getting hit in the face unexpectedly by an air bag is not fun. Then I found out my insurance policy had been cancelled because of my tendency to make late payments on everything. So irresponsible. Final price tag for my stupidity is still TBD but it is mucho big. Just in time for the holidays.
The silver lining is that it was the kick in the backside that has been much needed lately. When I am pleased with myself I tend to function poorly. I eat poorly, I drink too much, I don't exercise as much, pay little to no attention to finances, I just relax and enjoy life. After this mishap I have once again gotten into a more New York state of mind, everything very militaristic. Wake up, exercise, eat right and light, read until work starts. Work ceases only for lunch. After work, gym. After work and the gym I am usually so exhausted that I pass out early and sleep fit. Sleep has been hard to come by lately. Sunday is the only day I relax and watch football.
Only day I broke from this routine was Thursday. After the gym I got home and was dragged out by roomates and coworkers, despite my protests and exhaustion. Got to the bar and ordered a beer in hopes it would give me a second wind. Nope. Made it through half before I started to fall asleep at a corner table. There is nothing that makes me more sketched out than falling asleep at a bar. Eventually I was shaken awake by my roommate and pointed in the direction of our car so I could sleep. Woke up the next morning to discover that I had unsuccessfully tried to keep myself awake by texting something funny to a friend. Not a good idea. After a series of bizarre attempts and pleas for her to call me back I had given up. In the angry voicemail she left me she assumed I was wasted, it was the only real assumption anyone could make. Usually I just sleepwalk when I'm that tired, this time not so lucky. She won't talk to me anymore.
To recap: 1) wrecked car.... check, 2) pissed off a dear friend.... check. I've been on a roll lately.
After this series of shit events I decided to stay in California for Christmas. Figured with my luck any plane I got on would nose dive into a mountain and then not only mine but 100-200 other people would have their Christmas' ruined too. I'd feel horrible if I was responsible for that. So it'll be an orphan Christmas in Cali this year, either solo or with a couple coworkers. Having these extra couple days will make the house move more leisurely. I'm taking the silver linings where I can get them.
An upcoming trip to New York for work is turning into an extra fun one as I get to see a lot of people I haven't for a while. An old friend from Boston University is coming to visit for a couple days. It'll be the first time I've seen her in 9 years. It should be an eventful reunion. Another friend from Long Island I used to work with is going to accompany me to a show at Fashion Week which will also be a lot of fun. It'll be the first time I've seen her in five years. Lots of catching up to do there. And the other day I got in touch with the last girl I had any type of relationship with and made plans to visit her and her family. These reunions are always fun but kind of awkward as her family was very nearly my family. It'll be the first time in two years I've seen her. I got the chance to meet her first son then and apparently he's monstrous huge now. This trip will be the first time I get to meet her second son. I love dealing with kids that young. No intellect required or social back and forth, just a big smile and loving eyes and a soft tone and you're golden. The difficulty of having fun and easy conversations with a person who you used to spend nearly every waking second with but is now on the very outskirts of your life is astounding. Lots of uncomfortable pauses and trying to keep everything nonchalant so her husband doesn't ever suspect we were romantic. Mentally exhausting. She is the reason I refuse to lie to people I'm close to anymore, it is what makes our encounters so awkward now.
Finally get to blow some steam off this weekend by taking a musician friend to a movie double feature. We've been trying unsuccessfully to find mutual free days to catch up since I got back from New York this summer and it looks to finally be about to happen. Will be a merciful departure from the way things have been going recently. And then a few days in Vegas next week to spend a bit of the holidays with my favorite person in the world. Just what the doctor ordered to restore my holiday cheer.
Now to try to get back to sleep, house is disturbingly quiet now that I am the only one left. Last day of work this week before focusing on moving and trying to get friends un-pissed off at me. Lots of holiday work to do :)
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